I've been rather volatile the past few days and restraining myself from blogging lest I pour out a jeremiad of complaints, or whine, but I'm tired of bottling it all up. So here's my catharsis of sorts...
A friend remarked some time back that I was going senile. Why? Because for the last two days I'd sent text messages with lyrics of songs inserted in between. I went from wishing good morning to talking about how it's raining men (how I wish that were happening - well atleast one man!) back to mundane questions of how the day is planned.
I'm not really going senile ofcourse. And I'm sure my friend didn't mean it either. I put down my erratic behaviour to boredom. That is part of the reason...but there is more. (When isn't there?) It's a sense of hopelessness that is pervading into my bones. I'm tired. Tired of pretending that it's all going to fall into place in the end - not when everything's still hanging in the air and stubbornly refusing to budge (leave alone fall!) ...
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i thought only i go through these "deep down in the dumps" phases.
this will also pass away...
Been in a cynical frame of mind off late, so don't expect words of hope coming from my end. Whine away to glory. Look at the bright side. Tons of people will read it.
mmmm... raining men, eh? lol.. dat was de last song i'd expect u to want to sing! hehehehe...
but... i get ure point about boredom. i;m in de same rut. when, o when o when do we get out? get OUT?!
rant over.
senility aint dat bad, u know! ;-)
new story up, by de way.
PS: just thought abt this - now dat aks is in bbay, de pune blog u guys wrote together is dead, is it?
Thanks for giving words to my situation.:)
Brood Mode - Yes, when I think with my head I know it's a phase, for life is made up of it's up and downs. But as of now, it's the heart that rules supreme.
Aristera - Yawn back at you :-/
Parth - LOL well, initially I wasn't posting because I didn't want the whole world privy to my own turmoil. Then I figured, what the hell, might as well rake in the sympathies:-P
CloseTalk - Pray tell me why I shouldnt expect men to rain - specially considering that I am very heterosexual, not to mention the acute shortage of the right kinda men!
Living High - Actually I contributed only one post to that blog, so you should ask Akshay that question!
Blank - It's good to know I ain't alone in this sea of existential despair :-)
Nice new clean fresh look new template.
:-)
Bottling it up isn't too great, so good you let it out. In a way. Feeling better now?
is it in the air or wht??? im goin thru the exact same shit...n its godawfully annoyin....i think i'll start a club-- "THE PHASERS" membership now open!!!! for all u bored n done with lifers (atleast for the moment)....
oh...abt mentionin rainin men...dont u think wrong timing??? ;-)...lmao...jus wht i needed to open office...
so startin tday....any1 interested in our beloved blogger plz leave ur CVs with me n well we shall see whr it goes from thr........
yes i know u totally love me n owe me for this one geets...
hey....real sorry...but it was jus so damn irresistable!!!!!!
hav fun...
love n PEACE!!!
ciaos
August - Yep better already...crossing my fingers tight that things do fall into place!
Btw the template is the same, just changed the colours so it looks clean and mature...
Kitana - OK big time shock my dear! Didn't think you'd actually carry out that threat of yours! But really you don't have to set up a marriage bureau just for me...am quite capable of finding my own munda :-)
Oh no, my dear, not alone at all in existential angst. But all platitude apart, it will all fall into place. The only problem is that it will happen for every undeserving person on Earth first! Now that I have the nasties out of the way... :)!
Whatever you do, don't bottle it up. Let it rip because it is a way to move ahead... out of the mire.
Forgive the preaching. :)
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