A fleeting remark about "happiness" brought up the following line of thought. Probably incredibly convoluted as are most of my (il) logical thoughts, but I couldn't help but question whether I'd be "happy" if I had absolute enduring happiness. Utopic, but wouldn't that be artificial and some how take away from my own levels of endurance and make me a rather bland person? So oft have I fervently wished for happiness and lamented when the fleeting moments of happiness have slipped through my fingers like loose sand, leaving behind that awful sinking feeling in my heart and endless days of dark, cold depression...
But would a life full of undiluted happiness, ideal as it sounds, have any character at all? How would I measure my state of happiness if I knew no other state of being? And how would I then, deal with a calamity if I've never seen a dark cloud shadowing my horizons?
Minutes later, I realised that it isn't enduring happiness I crave, it's enduring contentment and peace. Happiness after all is ephemeral and defined by a certain evanescence and shallowness, isn't it? What I wouldn't do to go to bed at night, my heart and mind at peace, content with my life. I can only cross my fingers that I have that some day and that it lasts...
Amen...
4 comments:
Contentment, I believe, comes from our own capacity to accept things, good and bad, without much fuss and make peace with ourselves; happiness is just a by-product of this contentment. Often, it's our mounting expectations and ambitions that don't let us feel content; we feel content only when everything happens our way, which it seldom does. However, contentment is a very personal thing and everyone might have a different notion of contentment, and of course different ways of finding contentment as well.
Such profundity at such a tender age....makes me sure you will find the contentment you seek. And I promise you, you will find it in the most surprising place ever.
So very true! And they also say peace comes from within.. So shouldn't be difficult for us... :) Except that such simple things sometimes become too difficult to actually implement.. but definitely worth trying...
Hey i like ur words! U really express very nicely!
more than a week, no new post. no pressure, my dear, just stating a fact. :-)
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